BubbleTwins

You know those little moments where you decide something in half a second, you're really nervous, and you think about regretting it but then you're like: "Hey! Let's do this!"
I had one of those moments today.
It was actually really interesting.
I don't want to go to homecoming. And when I asked my mom if we could get a dress and she said we wouldn't be able to, I had one of those snap decisions and I was like "That's it. I'm not going." And I almost broke down and cried because there's a part of me that wants to go, and there's that part of me that is holding back ALL THE WAY. If I have nothing to wear, I can't go. For some reason I don't think my skin sweater would fit the dress code.
Anyway. There's my sob story for the day.
I think that decision was from how sick I am. Today was the day where I reached that emotional-sickness point where I gave up on everything else and was like: "OK. Yeah, I get it. I'm sick and my body doesn't want to do this. But not everything goes my way!" I'm one of those people who will go to school dying and not think twice. (I actually did that in 7th grade. I wasn't dying but I wasn't well either! I had a fever of 103 and I just went to school. I ended leaving during second period because I couldn't talk and my arms wouldn't stop shaking.)
Anyway.
Which leads me into my next point.
God. Sigh. What an interesting guy. He made the path to righteousness so easy, yet so hard. I get SO angry at myself because I feel that sometimes I live that double life. Because I have failed a couple times, or kept on messing up I feel like I've muffed everything. But that's not really true. Everyone has those days. Everyone messes up. Everyone is going to fall short of the glory of God. But that's why there's "Forgiveness/ and a second chance..."
Blurb for the day.

• I pretty much lost my mind on sixth off today. I was doing my homework-no wait... scratch that- I was supposed to be doing my homework but I couldn't concentrate and I think a fever was kicking in so my mind went haywire and I couldn't focus on anything. I checked out a computer, I turned it back in five minutes later. I went to get a dictionary, I grabbed a thesaurus. I was text messaging my mom and I was reading the message out loud in the library.
• It was awful. Then I was really thirsty so I bought juice and downed that in like, three seconds.
• There you go. My day in a nut shell.
• I just realized, this post is long. Really long. I've only been typing for like... ten minutes?
  
• Tonight I am reading my bible. Point blank. I mean, I read my bible every night, but tonight, man I am going to do it. I just need it right now. My tank is running low. I just need something.
• So the bonfire last night was pretty fun but overrated. I mean, it caught fire, it got really big, and ten minutes later it was just a little lump of smoldering wood.
• Well, I came, I saw, I conquered, I left. That was pretty much it. With a lot of pictures and laughter in between.
• Enough said.