Thursday, 3 September 2009
You know? I wrote two posts today (technically 1 1/2 because my last one I started yesterday.) But I'm not really that concerned, because when I want to write I'm going to write!!! So ha. ha. ha.
Anyway.
I have to say I envy the way Leah writes her posts. And Sonia. And Emma. And Grace. (No offense to you Morgie, but, I listen to you everyday. My life is like, your blogs. Or what you say in them!)
But really! All those people are so, so gifted then there's me. It's like I'm standing in a room full of great/awesome people and I say hello: "Hello." And NOBODY hears you.
That's the way I feel.
Blurb for the day? I think not. That wasn't deep. (Then again, nor are half the other things I say. You win some you lose some.)
- I don't want anything right now. Nothing, I am perfectly content in the natural where I stand.
- I haven't hung out with Emma, just a few of us, in three weeks. That. Is. Upsetting.
- Something is gnawing on my heart right now. It's like nibbling away at what I know and believe and I want. It. OUT!
- I have been having weird imaginations. I'm starting to freak out. I don't like it, it's totally not like me, and I DON'T LIKE IT! It sometimes makes me wonder how things like this wiggle their way to my brain in the first place...?
- Through extensive-brain-stretching thinking I have come up with a plan. I think it rather brilliant. I am going to tape a paper bag or box up. Then I'm going to scrawl GOD in big bold letters on the front. Then I'm going to write on pieces of paper my cares, concerns etc. on paper and drop it in there. What do you think?
- I came up with this because 1: my weird imaginations. God where are you? That's what it feels like. Now he can be stuck to my wall. And 2: because I can't talk to him like I can talk to my sister or friends. I want him there.
- Anyway.
- Didn't everyone just LOVE LOVE LOVE Emma's last post?! I liked how she put the feeling of running and all that stuff. She is a gifted writer!!! It's just that... well... everyone has their days.
- Enough said.
Trip, Ace & Demo,
~A&A
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3 comments:
Firstly, where do you get all these awesome pictures?! And second, I believe that those 'imaginations' or thoughts that somehow end up crawling into our minds is sometimes just our fleshly nature.. or an attack of the enemy. It depends on what they are, if that fits in with what you're talking about at all. But the amazing thing is that since you're able to spot them when they start, you have the power to kick them out quickly! All with one word!
I was gonna ask where you get the awesome pictures too...and have you heard Breathe by Anna Nalick?
The lyric that reminds me of when I feel that way is
"and I feel like I'm naked in front of a crowd / cuz these words on my diary screaming out loud "
just because no matter what you do, that fulfillment of people can only go so far. I used to feel like that a lot, like nobody would notice me if I just screamed in a room full of people. I still get that way sometimes, but God definitely doesn't let me wallow in it. God doesn't like you unhappy, Sydney! And he wants to talk to you. It may not be sitting in a starbucks sippin back on your vanilla bean frappy, but nobody else has that relationship that you have with him. NOBODY.
Sydney, I heard you. When you walked into that room, I heard you.
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